I was checking my stats for this blog today, and I thought I would throw out an idea to anyone who might read this blog.
This blog is about me figuring out and the logging of my journey of dealing with my depression. Yet it occurred to me that it could be something else, too.
I am inviting anyone who reads this blog to share their own thoughts about their life, about depression, about joys, about anything you think someone else could benefit from reading. Share your story and help someone else not feel alone in their experience.
This came to me today because it is true that I am afraid of my depression. I have some incorrect notions about what it means to be a person who suffers from depression, thus I am scared that if I admit I am depressed, it means I am bizarre and abnormal, and that makes me uncomfortable. :(
So if we all share more about ourselves with others, then we can feel less odd and alone in our world. I may not do a blog post very often, but I check for new comments everyday. SO if you leave your story, I will get it into the comments asap.
Personally, I have followed my self-destructive patterns again of starting something new and then putting it aside. I am not giving up though; I am assessing what I've been doing (with help form my amazing husband), revisiting my workbook, and adjusting what I have been doing that is not on target with the goals I have set.
Shit, reading that last part back makes me sound like I know what I am doing; far from it. I am blessed with a husband who is really on my side and is willing to call me on my bullshit. Thank all things big and small!!
Okay, so don't give up! I won't either.
Share what ever you'd like about you and your experience. Let's help each other!!
The worst part of depression had to be that feeling of not wanting to do anything, even though my logical side was saying something like "there is nothing wrong with my life, everything is going well, I'm not in any sort of trouble... I shouldn't feel this way!"
ReplyDeleteYou cannot talk yourself out of depression. A good therapist can help you to find your way forward and that is what rescued me. I am fully aware that it could all come back at any time though. My therapist is only an email or phone call away.
You are right that knowing you have others around who understand helps.
The absolute worst thing was being told "You are just being silly! Buck up, there are lots of others in a worse situation than you." It can be deeper and darker than anyone who has never experienced it can imagine. Try to forgive these people for their ignorance and when you can, educate them.
Halle,
ReplyDeleteThank you so much for sharing! I cannot agree with you more that the worst part is feeling like I don't want to do anything, even though I can logically think of no reason to not do. Really, I have goals and things I want to accomplish, and it frustrates me that I often don't want to do anything.
Thank you for the comment about forgiving people and trying to educate them. I needed to hear that. I have been embarrassed by the fact that depression is a part of my life, but I do not need to be. It is an opportunity for me to help others by being willing to share my experiences and let others know they are not alone.
I am very happy for you that you have learned the skills needed to manage your depression!
Again thank you very much for putting yourself out there!!!
Hugs!!!
I think there is a lot of wisdom in this post. You cannot talk yourself out. I feel you can do things to help keep yourself out of depression that may not work all the time but will help. Once depressed from what I have witnessed it is very hard to turn around without the right help.
ReplyDeleteAnd I totally agree, being told you are being silly is probably the most negative thing that can be said and should be ignored.
Yes, mike, I agree that Halle's post has some good wisdom in it. And I think the points you highlighted are important to know about depression.
DeleteThank you so much for sharing your thoughts!